Naples Florida Webmaster - Personal Diary

Start of a New Era

From now on, this blog will mainly be concerned with me, Brian Zajac. All of my naples internet marketing and design info will go to my EyeMagination site. So, change is good, right? Well, time will tell...but I'm hoping that I won't make you snore reading this.

What to expect?
Less of the techy, more of the personal. In order to really look back on my life, I want to create this online diary...devoid of insecurities and shyness - a quality which I've grown up with. Hopefully, I can gain an insight to it all by knowing that you're reading this. And by all means, comment on it. There's a comment field at the bottom of each post or you can feel free to sign my guestbook.

What now?
My first post...never better than to start right now -->

Tonight and this weekend seems to shine introspection. Friday night is a usual time when I go out. But it's been raining here in naples and I feel like my old times in Ohio...rainy, dreary, and full of lonliness. Meditation clears my mind but TV is an easier escape.

As the weekend progresses on, I watch a pretty good movie tonight after dinner at red lobster. The name? The Butterfly Effect w/ Ashton Kutcher. One of the things I've taken from the movie is his diary; and the way he manipulates it. He tries to make life more perfect each time he alters life by revisiting his diary. But, each time it gets worse. In any case, some of the events are quite tramatic...which brought back feelings to my near and dear friend. She didn't have to say it, I knew it. Hopefully, I helped coax some of the pain out and she'll sleep well tonight.

As for me, I got to thinking about my family. Today I bought a CD for my mother and nothing for my father. When I buy, do I have to buy for both? Of course not, but it feels wierd. Especially since I can only think of getting items for mom, not dad. Then I realized that I've always had that special connection with my mother. Although my dad can never be better, we just don't have certain bonds as I grew up with my mother. I guess that's why most of my friends are women.

But recognizing life's patterns are a way to change them. Although I won't speak of it, I'm going to try and include some more moments with my father. They won't be around forever, so I consider this time especially valuable to get to know my father.

So, entry #1 ends on a heavy note. But, it's good to get it off my chest. I hope by an entry in 2005, this issue will be resolved. What a waste to not explore such a great man...